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Lately I don't feel anything
my mind is numb, my body's weak
i wish i'd just float into space where i belong
i'll go out the way i came
a bag of bones, a busted brain
i've been living with a beat up heart for way too long
i'll change my ways
when i am good and ready to
or i'll stay the same
if i want
and ill be okay
or ill be drunk and miserable
till I'm dead and gone
i quit sleeping in the wake
of all the dreams that i can't shake
now I've been staring at these same white walls
for way too fucking long
and I've been digging my own grave
a shallow hole that bears my name
a place to spend my greatest days alone
i'll change my ways
when i am good and ready to
or i'll stay the same
if i want
and ill be okay
or ill be drunk and miserable
till I'm dead and gone
I clench my fist and grit my teeth
I pound the pavement till I bleed
get drunk enough to fall asleep
drown in mediocrity
fuck it
i'll change my ways
when i am good and ready to
or i'll stay the same
if i want
and ill be okay
or ill be fucking miserable
till I'm dead and gone
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I met a psychic in St. Louis
And everything she said was fucking bullshit
I was a man down on my luck
And she exploited my misfortunes just to make a couple bucks
Told me she could give me answers that would help me get unstuck
But it's been 5 years and I'm still in this rut
I was having a hard time living
I was stuck in one place but the world kept spinning on
Stuck in a rut again
Prognosis negative
I was having a hard time with having a hard time
Searching for something to get me through the waves of my anxiety
So is life worth living well i've got my fucking doubts
'cause i've seen the future and it freaked me out
Spend all of your money
Give all your shit to charity
'cause in this life there are no guarantees
I met a barkeep in Barcelona
And with every drink he poured he got me closer
To feeling numb
To feeling free
And he kept pouring till I poured the guts right out of me
So I get to drinking to alleviate my doubts
I toss em back until it's lights out
Give up the things that get you down
Bury your burdens in the ground
Forgive yourself for the things you can't control
I can't afford
The free will afforded to me
I got buyers remorse
On a life thats been gifted to me
I'm scatter-brained
I'm searching for certainty
But in this life
There's no guarantees
Except the guarantee
That one day you'll be dead
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3. |
Down in Flames
03:44
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The great love that we built —
I guess it wasn’t great at all
It collapsed pretty fast and you slipped away
And i’m working through the guilt
It was mostly my own fault
You see, i never learned how to communicate, properly
There’s a guy knocking at my door
Begging for me to hear the word of his lord
But I don’t give a shit
I don’t need the threat of hell
To make me wanna treat others well
I believe in love but I don’t believe in magic
The way that it once felt
To hold you in my arms
It’s a slap in the face of muscle memory
The vacancy you left
In the space that was my heart
Reminds me of all that you meant to me, relentlessly
Hold on i got something to say -
I gave all that I had and you still ran away
You won’t believe it but I swear it’s the truth
I was there for you then and i’m here for you now too
And i’ve accepted that we’re not meant to be
But when I fall asleep you’re in all of my dreams still
Already said it but I wanna be clear -
I was there for you then and Im here till i’m not here
I’ll go down in flames i’m sure but it’s nothing that I haven’t faced before
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4. |
He's Coming For Everyone
00:27
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He's coming for everyone
He's coming for everyone
It's coming for everyone
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5. |
Old Keys
03:14
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These old keys won't open new doors
I read that on the internet
I took that message with a grain of salt
When I tried sleeping on your side of the bed
And my commitment
Issues are keeping me alive
It's kinda funny but it's the truth
Forever feels like such a hella long time
I've got a stubborn fucking heart
This muscle muscles me to keep pushing on
I etched my name in a passing train
When I fucked my way through California
And I'm not scared to die
It must be easier than being alive
Maybe that's a lie
I guess we'll find out when the mother fucking reaper arrives
He's coming for everyone
He's coming for everyone
He's coming for everyone
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Lousy, thanks.
02:04
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I still curse god -
When something doesn't go my way
Although I claim to not believe in any deities or saints
And so I guess -
That makes me some kind of hypocrite
Some stupid fucking piece of shit that don't know anything
I wish I could power down my brain
My memory -
Well it never plays the hits
It always likes to reminisce on things that I'd like to forget
And I get lost -
In these thoughts that come my way
They're shooting rapid fire every single day
If only I could power down my brain
A hard restart would make it all okay
It's not getting any better
But it can't get any worse
As long as things just stay the same
I guess I could make this work
I could probably make it work
'Cause I've rehearsed my lines
At least a hundred thousand times
And people they don't want the truth so you gotta learn to lie
So when someone asks me —
"Hey man, how you doing?"
I'm doing fine.
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